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I'm really introverted and antisocial. I'm very selfish and inconsiderate and don't do well with other people. For the past 2 years I've been travelling the world in an attempt to turn around my basement dweller lifestyle and change. I guess I've done well in a way because I can be around people, fit in a group and be comfortable talking to strangers and making friends, however, inside I'm still feeling exactly the way I always have. Unless I have some incentive to get information I feel like talking to other people is a waste of time, I get no joy out of socializing, can't see the point and would much rather do something else. The only connection I have with the few friends that I have is that we play the same video games, that's it. I actually really fucking like some of them and tried to connect to them, open up and shit but I just don't know how. I'm a boring lazy ass video game addict who might be smarter than average but got nothing of interest to tell. I feel like the only 2 good friends I have left will soon go a different direction and I really want to keep them in my life and get closer but I don't know how. I badly want to have a great girlfriend but whenever I'm with a girl I don't know how I would ever keep her around for long, I can say 1 or 2 funny things and make her comfortable but fuck man give it 2 days and I couldn't think of anything I could tell her. Maybe getting drunk and partying helps loosen up and experience shit together but I just dont enjoy that shit. If you put me and my friend into one empty room together I would have no idea what the fuck to do with him. I got nothing to tell. Im. Just. Boring....I think...fuck if I know.
How do I actually connect with people? How do I keep my friends and get a girl to stay with me?