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How do I apologize for being such a heinous bitch?
Boyfriend was going to a high-school reunion. He was really quite excited, even though I got the impression he wasn't hugely enthralled by high school. I kept saying I wasn't going to go, that it was an opportunity for him to re-connect with old friends, but he kept talking about it, and especially this one girl, Dianna, whom he used to play a lot of chess with. (And he teaches chess, professionally, to him the game is a BIG deal)
And this went on to the point where I was half-sure he was going to hook up with this Dianna chick, and I didn't explicitly say I thought that, but I'm pretty sure he picked up on the vibe anyway, and I wound up at the last minute deciding to attend, more to keep an eye on him than anything else.
We get there, and I meet Diana. She's in a wheelchair, her middle body's all twisted, her arms are sticks, and boyfriend whispered to me later that she's been like that, physically, for as long as he's known her. I don't know what condition she has, but it's probably some sort of muscle degeneration?
The point is, I'm not even sure she'd be able to have sex from a purely physical point of view, and it took two seconds of observation to realize bf sees her almost as a little sister he's there to protect and not a love interest.
I feel terrible, for my lack of trust, but he keeps going on, I'm sure in his mind he's being gracious, by simply pretending not to acknowledge how much of a bitch I've been in the past few weeks, and that makes it hard to apologize to him, which he really does deserve. I sort of know what I want to say to him when we both get home, but I'm not so sure how to open the conversation up.
ping pong ball in colon
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as an heterosexual male I did some stupid things. well, in brief, I have a ping pong ball in my colon since January! :(
somehow I kept on having bowel moments daily as usual. just with the fact that I poop less each time (I guess it's just the amount that can make it beyond the ball) and constantly feel a little constipated.
I feel the ball moving inside time to time. referring to the schema I posted here, I can say it's usually hanging around between part 3 and 4. a few times it went to part 1, but never came to the end, which is part 5. I guess it just can't pass from 4 to 5 because of the sphinchter muscle between them. once because of some light ache, I felt as it was passing to 5 but then it got back. I'm pretty sure I can let it out, only if it can pass from 4 to 5.
I tried; relaxing in different positions, sitting in hot water for a while, having diarrhea, having constipation, minding my diet accordingly, etc. but nothing worked.
luckily I don't feel like there's an emergency; no pain, no permanent constipation, but just some feeling of discomfort time to time, and knowing that it's still there..
as you can see this is not a joke. and I still don't want to think of going to the hospital because of some personal reasons. I'd really appreciate some serious suggestions for getting it out or at least making it pass from 4 to 5, or maybe some way to relax my intestine muscles to let it out.
thanks in advance to the ones who will care..
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My boyfriend's been planning a trip over the summer, he'll be gone for about a month. I try to not so subtly hint that I would love to go with him. Yesterday I said "you should take me with you" to which he responded maybe, we'll see. It turns out that 5 minutes after that conversation he messaged his cousin asking her to go travelling Europe with him.
In addition to this, I feel like I don't know what he wants out of this relationship. I feel like if I ask, he'll say something along the lines of "I don't know, we'll see where it goes". We've been dating a year and a half.
He also doesn't really consider my feelings in anything. If he disagrees with something I say or do, he won't say it, he'll sit there and listen to it and wait for me to stop talking about it. It's insulting. He won't consider my point of view, he'll just say "yup you're right". It's like he thinks I'm an idiot.
He never says romantic things, and makes fun of me when I say them. And the moment I stop saying loving things to him, he turns around and acts like a lovesick puppy. But never does he say anything new. I've never gotten a "you mean so much to me", a "i love being with you", and very rarely do I get a i miss you.
Basically, he's taking me for granted and not really considering my wants, only his. He wants to be adored but doesn't return the favor unless I'm ignoring him. He quietly ignores me whenever he thinks I'm being stupid. He tried to tell me what my parents were like, so I started arguing with him that I know them best, and he did his little "yup you're right thing". I'm insulted, offended, and very displeased with his inability to understand others viewpoints without just fucking ignoring them if he doesn't want to talk about them. I don't like that, instead of being honest with me about something, he'll brush me off because he doesn't think it's important for me to know something.
Anyone else had this sort of situation?
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Hi there /adv, I know this is put to you guys a shit ton, but:
I'm beta, simple as that. I'm 16 (you're not /b so I feel safer here) and I've never kissed, let alone had any bodily contact with a girl except when at parties and they're stoned. I'm not a walrus, most people find me funny, I don't lack friends and I'm not socially retarded. So, if anyone who's overcome being beta could give stories/advice/guidance I would be very grateful...
>Pic unrelated, my wallpaper
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>GF is bipolar
>Pushed me away for months, made me feel she'd checked out
>we had a fight that culminated in her walking out and us splitting up
>a day after she tells me that the night she left she slept with her ex on a whim
>we keep talking every day or so since for a 2 week period
>this weekend I went looking for information for depression as I'd been taking this all pretty hard
>found a thread on a forum written in her style, matches dates, times and events
>says she had consistently cheated on me in the final few weeks with a friend who is himself married with a pregnant wife
>I call her on it, she spends hours explaining everything
>rather than self harm herself she used him to self-harm, she used him to damage our relationship, the one thing that made her really happy. She started it whilst hypomanic and it only continued as a form of self-harm.
>I understand it all, I've forgiven her
>She wants to live alone, be alone. She still says she loves me and has real hope for an "us" in the future though she doesn't know when that'll be
>This other guy doesn't know I know, he has since rejected her (he's not her ex btw). I have promised no-one will hear any of this from me, it would quite literally destroy her world (her social circle and even her family all know this guy and his wife and would basically drop my gf like a stone if they found out)
>I'm now moving out and finding my own place in the world (we've been together since school and lived together for nearly our whole 6 year relationship). She's keeping our home and her life pretty much the same
>I don't want what we had back but I still want the intimacy and all the good stuff we had together, quite literally I believed (and still do believe) her to be "the one". I love her still and want her back, maybe not to live with but as something. She has said she just wants to be friends and then hopefully more in the future.
So /adv/, what do?
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So, I'm officially moving to California in 3 months.
My ex-girlfriend of 4 years, who I haven't really spoken with in over a year, still lives here where I'm about to move from. We had a pretty big on and off relationship, but I still think about her from time to time.
The question I have is, do I email her one last time the night before I officially move to tell her my thoughts and feelings knowing I never have the possibility of ever seeing her again, or do I just go to California and never look back?
I am not coming back to this area once I move, its basically California or bust at this point.
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Posted here a few nights ago with some wimmen stuff. Things have progressed well between us up until this tonight
i like girl, tell her about a week ago. sent her a snapchat at like 11:05. noticed it was 11:11
green text is me
>11:11 I wish for u xoxo (wasn't entirely serious, was hoping to get a laugh from the xoxo part)
Aw I love youuuuuu
>Aww I love you too
we've still been texting, but im not sure if that was her thinking i asked her out or some shit. do i play it cool and continue on normally, or can i be straight forward and ask what we are
pic unrelated, its an ugly tattoo on an old high school classmate of mine