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>medicated for one year
>have a date that went to shit because my depression pills
>have some episode were I crashed my car on depression pills
>leave pills and tell my psychiatrist to go fuck himself
>start to run and lift two months ago
>everything starts to get better, every day run faster, longer, every day I lift heavier numbers
>not thinking of qts
>last week I was invited to a marriage
>everybody is going with a partner
>ask every single qt I know if they want to go
>every single one of them rejects me
>skip gym, lay in bed all day
>take pills to sleep
>wake up, feel like shit, go to run, barely able to move my legs, go to gym, everybody notices I'm doing everything wrong
>almost neck myself doing ohp
>"are you ok anon?"
>"y-yes, I'm tired"
I'm relapsing anons, already told that I'm not going to that party, put some shitty excuse, I'm thinking of offing myself again
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>Skelly on SS
>TDEE of 2.4k cals
>Taking in 3.2k cals
Ive deloaded, made sure my recovery variables are ok, but i just CANT GO A MICROPLATE ABOVE THOSE WEIGHTS
I have also self diagnosed myself with hyperflexibility, i am double jointed and can stretch my limbs to the point where everyone is always suprised during group warmups. No, i dont stretch before lifting. Hyperflexibility also states that muscle gain is a lot harder. I also have minor scoliosis, doctor diagnosed through xray, although you wouldnt know if i didnt tell you and it doesnt seem to affect me.
I tried to deadlift 82.5kg and failed and now im just eating bacon and drinking milk at the cafe and being really sad.
Am i making excuses for myself, or are some people just destined not to make it?