Can I feels the future?
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I have some questions.
Does anyone else feel like this is all wayyy too fucking familiar? I mean, life?
I'm a 26yo eurofag who has some mental problems due to being abused as a child by both parents. A couple of years ago I what I now describe as a psychotic breakdown, though at the time, it was a "spiritual awakening" and an ego death. I felt like a Buddhist incarnate and was blessed with "truth". I felt ONE with everything.
Fast forward to today, I'm a nutcase who has never had a real job, but also thinks he is of some 'importance' to this planet. Ever since the breakdown I have started noticing that my life is very much in line with what society is evolving into and where we, as a species, seem to be heading in the short run.
I'm an artist and I have spent a great deal of time on the internet being a secluded anxious kid who had to pretend to be someone he was not for most of his life, in front of friends, family, ex-gf,... All the things I'm seeing today are things I knew were bound to happen and I feel I instinctively "know" or feel where we are headed as well.
All this garbage with social justice, feminazism, racial issues,... feels like I am living a movie I have already seen.
It goes back a long long way, the strange part is that people have ALWAYS pointed out to me that things I did were strange or peculiar, and in some cases not even a year later, the same people would find themselves in the same boat they had mocked me in earlier.
Two important things I see/feel for our future:
The economy will never collapse, the scam is completely in place and will simply continue to be exploited. Don't hope for a "reset" of any kind, it's not going to happen.
Society is completely controlled. This WILL be (ab)used by those in the know, possibly including myself and you as well. Will expand on this in cont'
pic unrelated, never done DMT either, very interested though
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In this thread, we discuss how to become real gods and what it will take to get there. Remember... aiming high is just trying to be the best you can be. You must have SOME ideas... don't you?
I'll add something cool to start us off...
Nobody can be perfect and nobody can be everything. Does this mean that if we become Nobody or nobody, we can become everything that is perfect? Additionally, if this applies in mind and appears to work in some way... does that mean that it applies in the physical world as well in some form? Because universal ways of processing are more or less consistent with everything and nothing through all dimensions of time and space?
...don't mention religion(at least one of you will, though) because being god is not about correctness or even righteousness. It's about being what is. All religion is. Thus, it's all part of what God or god would be. Take what you can from it and leave it at that.
Now... what do you have to say about all of this? What do you think being a god is all about? I want to know what you think. Not what some book told you to think. Jesus can go fuck himself. To be fair, though, he had some good lessons to teach.
Paranormal TV Goes In Depth About Aliens And Cover- Ups With Former Government Agent on Youtube
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This awesome youtube channel, paranormal TV, is releasing this 4 part video series where they talk to this ex government agent guy and he spills some top secret info about aliens, conspiracies, and cover ups! Super cool. I can't wait to see all of them, but for now you can watch the first one here at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E-qra3BmIqI&feature=youtu.be
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Not quite sure if this is the right board for this, I suppose /x/ is one of my back-up boards - the ones I visit when I'm trying not to look at porn.
But I digress.
I'm back home for the winter and I've decided to go talk to the village's pastor.
>three churches in the village, one Catholic (used mostly for weddings) one Methodist, and one Evangelical Protestant. There's also a spiritualist church but I prefer my wacky cults to be founded on at least a painstakingly constructed mythology and not some hippy 'feel the love' vibeology (I've so far only encountered Eastern traditions in the classroom) so balls to that.
Anyway, I'm going to go chat with the Pastor, and I'm wondering if anyone has any questions which might render useful results.
Also I could use a hand with my own arguments, so AMA.
>tl;dr Possible Wizzard Battle.
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I had a dream, so vivid, that I thought it was an actual memory.
>bridge collapse over a road near my house causes terrible train crash
>read in a newspaper article that my uncle was one of the victims
>he was crushed in his car while passing under the bridge
For years, I thought I actually lost an uncle to this train accident. Then when I mentioned it to my mom, she said "Anon, all of your uncles are alive and there has never been an accident there."
Now I have a young nephew, nearly 2 years old...maybe that vision...was a vision of him, reading about my death. I feel fear every time I pass under that bridge as a train is above it. Think its possible to have a future dream from the perspective of someone who was unborn at the time?
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Long time lurker here. Need to hear other people's opinions on this.
I'm not going to give too many specifics away as I've had to sign a non-disclosure agreement, and the organisation involved don't fuck around. But basically, over the past 2-3 years I've been testing drugs/medication for cash dollars. Helps me pay rent as I live in a very expensive city and my day job doesn't pay too well. The company that I go to to test these various drugs are legitimate and are contracted by many larger companies and organisations. I'm somewhat of a regular you could say. Never had any major side effects, a few headaches, a rash, sore throat. Nothing else thankfully.
Last month I got a phone call from them which wouldn't be uncommon. However this time they asked me if I would be prepared to do a trial directly for another organisation, ie. go to one of their clients directly to take part in a trial. I asked for more information but was told that they didn't have any more, they were simply asked to recommend a suitable person that matches my profile. But they did say that there would be a substantial increase in money.
So I went to visit this organisation. A group that everyone would recognise their name. But I'm not going to share here as I'm paranoid, and know that they can and do have powerful surveillance tools. So I'm just presuming this will be read, even though I'm on TOR, so I will avoid specifics. Even though there is nothing incriminating or questionable going on, that I know of.
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I desire immortality.
Not for personal gain, not for wealth or power or any of the selfish reasons that anyone else does.
I have no ambition. No goals, no drives. There's is little I want. But I'm not depressed at all. In fact, I'm quite content with where I'm at right now. I wouldn't go as far as to say I'm happy, because I have questions. Questions that really cannot be answered in one lifetime. As I said, I don't desire immortality for the selfish reasons most do, but to seek answers. I have this overwhelming desire to see entire lifetimes pass me. To watch everyone else. To wander the world as nothing but a passing stranger. To exist without an impact on the universe but rather, to watch the universe unfold.
I desire to watch everything that could ever happen, happen, and then to witness with my own eyes the death of this reality.
Just something I wanted to get out into words. No one I know could have anything constructive to say, but I've been lurking /x/ a lot more lately and the desires get stronger and stronger. Not in a "This guy's a nut, put him on suicide watch" kind of way, but like it's slowly becoming less of a dream and more a reality. Like the more I go on, the more I believe.
Dead body thread
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>waiter at some shitty bar/restaurant
>drunk bitch hits on me
>tell bartender to keep that bitch there
>get off (more on that later)
>buy the whore more drinks
>been drinking entire shift, so not like she was at a disadvantage
>end up at her place
>says she wants to fuck, but doesn't want it to be a one-time thing
>peel off her sweats and start eating her out
>shove my cock in
>as I'm about to cum, ask if I can shoot on her tits
>"no, anon, cum inside me"
>cum inside her
>shoot heroin and chase it with xanax and Jack Daniels
>fuck again, this time I plaster her face
>wake up next to a dead bitch and an infant crying in the other room
>bounced to the sound of a hungry neglected infant
>see that dead creampied cunt in my dreams every night
Ever seen a dead person up close, anons? Not.Fucking.Cool, Or just generally creepy/fucked-up experiences?
A tale that must be told
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I am convinced now that my life has been subject of the supernatural since I was very young.
This is a tale that I must tell you.
I am currently 25 and I am dying.
I have no idea when it began but I do remember flashes from my childhood.
At the time I was living with my grandparents and my grandmother used to have a cousin of hers over. They always talked about a night when they were young and did something in a barn on a fool moon involving cats and dogs and how they were accused of witchcraft.
During my infancy I was very sickly and each time my parents thought that I would die. Each year I had pneumonia about 2-3 times, and each time it was treated using more aggressive antibiotics, my legs were scarred from the needles.
The last time however, they had no effect.
To this day nobody can explain how I was healed, except that I remember that raw potato slices were tied to my forehead, hands and feet.
I never suffered from pneumonia again.
At age 8 I had a surgery, to remove my appendix.
The anesthetist was not careful and shot me 5 times the dosage. It took 6 minutes to revive me from clinical death. This resulted in more than a quarter of my brain cells dying. (IQ from 160 down to 120).