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First of all, I'm at work, so I didn't really get a chance to pre-write this, even though I know that you'll probably grow impatient waiting for a continuation (that is, of course, if you even take a liking for my story).
The house in the picture is where I used to live, when all of these things happened.
First of all, I was maybe about 9 or 10 when all of this started.
I had three stepsisters who were my dad's, and my brother who was my mom's, but not my dad's.
My dad was a druglord in the area, he eventually got arrested and my mom decided to split it up, because he got a 15 year sentence.
We moved out of our older home and came to this hellhole of a house. My uncle and his family had just gotten kicked out of their house, so they decided to move in with us, and my mom decided it would be easier, because that way we could split the bills and all that shit.
Now back to the topic. My step-sisters were absolute assholes all the time, and had a shit ton of dashy friends. The whole mess started when they moved out of the house. My uncle's family shortly occupied my sister's room, and my grandma came to visit, so she had her own room. My mom had a serious drug problem in that time, so she was always angry and arguing with my Grandma and us, which is the reason why I think our house always reeked of this nasty tense feel, the air was dense to the point where you felt like you were choking inside.
Some time after my Grandma moved in, my mom started to hear noises in the kitchen. By this time, my mom slept in the living room, to avoid being bothered by me, my brother or my grandma. She used to go to my room and spank me because she said I would always trash her makeup, when in reality, I was dead asleep. Some times she'd get mad and say me and my brother pulled on her hair, or pushed the sofa to wake her up. We never did. After some time, the noises started getting gradually louder. REALLY loud. cont.
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I began meditating for ~20 minutes every day recently, and within a short period I've begun to feel exceedingly calm and happy, and have tons of energy. It's also improved my ability to use my energy, and my mind.
Why doesn't everyone meditate?
Also, general meditation technique and tips thread.
The demiurge is not evil.
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The impurities are in ourselves, the only way to overcome the cosmic illusion/demiurge/DIVINE MOTHER is to rid yourself of the spiritual poison that infects us all, some more than others. The demiurge is a just god and exists to make us stronger through adversity, though if you submit to her will she will show you an entirely different face, and become a motherly lover.
The world is our lover when we love the world, but the world will punish us when we bring bad karma onto ourselves. That is what the neo-gnostics can't seem to grasp.
Tell me how I'm wrong /x/