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Anonymous 2014-11-24 12:48:22 No.15506503

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Hi /x/
This is not an insult, I'm just honestly curious.
How many of you are Neuroatypical? or have a 'mental illness'.
I myself have depression and anxiety and have also been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and Schizophrenia.
Aside from a desire to discover the mental conditions of other /x/ denizens and how these have affected their paranormal experience i am happy to answer any questions anyone has.
Ask a crazy person anything.


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Anonymous 2014-11-24 12:50:12 No.15506505
Ive got epilepsy. Pretty normal life while being controlled by meds.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 12:52:04 No.15506507
paranoid schizophrenia, psychosis pretty much got me here in the first place and interested in the paranormal

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 12:58:54 No.15506519
Bipolar, Depression, Anxiety, Panic, PTSD, Schitzotypical Personality Disorder checking in

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:02:08 No.15506522
OP again.
I thought this would be the place where most of us would at least spend a little time.
I've always been interested in the paranormal and I suspect a lot of my searching and questioning was probably influenced by the voices in my head.
Wanting to find a reason beyond 'you're broken' also seemed like a nice thing.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:11:15 No.15506528
>oooh we're crazy!

Such things have mountains of evidence, amirite?

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:15:59 No.15506536
Social anxiety disorder, under control now with medication.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:17:58 No.15506542
>>15506528
I'm confused what do you mean by that?
If you are implying that we are lying I can take a picture of some of my prescriptions if that would make you happy.
But think about it, why would we lie about something like that? If you are going to lie, make your life better not worse. Say you are a dragon or a vampire, not depressed.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:20:31 No.15506547
>>15506503
Heh, I've never been to a theraoist and I'm fully functional.
But I do remember a thead where I was discussing secret thoughts with some guy and we were extremely alike. Someone told us we had schizophrenia and in fact, the other guy did have schizophrenia (Didn't tell me which type)
Potentially mentally ill I guess ?

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:22:08 No.15506548
Used to have pretty bad depression, only comes back strong in the winter now. Also have pretty bad anxiety, and developing schizophrenia I think ever since a horribly bad trip on acid. Another time when I was having a great time on acid, my dumb ass spouse got me sent away in a stretcher because I was too busy enjoying the trip to be very responsive/conversational and they thought I had overdosed on one tab. Sort of have PTSD when it comes to paramedics and hospitals because I'm not sure if some bad shit went down, but I remember some shit going down, and now I dont like to be touched sexually or I start to feel needles and smell rubber gloves. Fun stuff.

The bad acid trip was in the summer, and I still have some weird thoughts left over from it. I get flashbacks a lot when I smoke weed, where it seems like people are telepathically hinting things to me while saying things that are vague and related to the situation but still "clues"? When I came down from the bad trip I was convinced I had to choose my own death, and die to get back to my actual reality. So sometimes I still feel like I haven't "woke up" yet. But I'll never do anything to shorten my time here, as my philosophy ever since a great shroom trip is just to experience life. Gain good and bad experiences, learn, I guess. I just dont see the point in leaving this existence too early if I'm not sure what is after, if there is an after. Although I believe the after, if you deserve a good one, is what the good acid trip I had felt like. An endless wave of light and happiness and vibration in tune with all other things, effortless bliss.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:24:35 No.15506554
Depression, social anxiety, borderline personality disorder. No meds, getting better every day since I dropped the weed. I have down days otherwise pretty numb. Hate my job. Poor.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:25:32 No.15506555
>>15506548
I like your philosophy but that loss of connection to reality scares me. I'm already paranoid enough about how much control I actually have over my mind without throwing drugs into the mix.
Thats another thing, I've always been quite straight edge because of my condition but from what people are saying I seem to be an outlier in that aspect?

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:30:42 No.15506565
Oh I also take mdma 2 to 3 times a month.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:32:45 No.15506569
>>15506548
I feel kind of shitty saying I believe I'm developing schizophrenia, but paranoid is what I'd call my thought process 60% of the time. If I was a faggot I might say I'm psychic now, but its not quite that even. It's like I went to the place the matters, the existence beyond this one, and I came back and was supposed to forget, but didn't. And I'm constantly being given hints (only from friends that I saw in that place, or family, never random people) on how to return. But I'm stubborn and making everyone angry because I'm staying inbetween, knowing about this place but staying here, refusing to accept that I need to transition to the other place because I can't make up my mind,

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:33:41 No.15506572
Schizoid Personality Disorder & Depression. Maybe other things.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:39:38 No.15506583
>>15506569
Seems like you might want to try and consult your local doctor/therapist/fortuneteller/witchdoctor/medium.
But seriously, tell us more about this 'place' you are talking about, do you mean like a state of mind or a physical place?

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:40:36 No.15506585
Just mild Aspergers or some shit. And depression, although possibly due to the Aspergers it just manifests as an inability to feel much of anything, and any blues I get I think I have valid reasons for , "therefore not depressive". How these have affected my paranormal experiences amounts to nil: I've never had such an experience and as a dry rationalist, never expect to. I'm also quite difficult to scare or get generally het up about anything; this, possibly, is due to the Aspergers/sociopathy/whatever you'd like to term my function.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:40:36 No.15506586
>>15506555
I dont exactly feel disconnected from reality, I just feel connected to two realities. I can go about a normal day perfectly fine and disregard or keep the "paranoid" thoughts from happening -as long as i dont smoke, then its a bit harder. But it seems life if I "open my eyes" to what people are really saying when I'm feeling like I could transcend, when I acknowledge that maybe the life I'm currently living is basically a game or a test or a learning experience, etc, that I belong better making up the fabric of existence instead of experiencing the existence that is being created..Well I guess thats when its safe to call me crazy.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:51:11 No.15506601
>>15506585
So what is it that brings you to /x/?

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 13:55:56 No.15506608
>>15506583
I'll start off by saying that you can take this as seriously as you want, or not at all, and you can just brush it off as a really good acid trip. I was at a concert.

As far as if it was "a state of mind or a physical place", I guess both. Physical wouldn't quite be the right word, it didnt feel physical, it felt lighter. I remember everyone was brighter, as in glowing, everyone had a color. One of my friends was a very pure white color while his girlfriend was periwinkle and their colors flowed together. I remember my partner was the most beautiful color to me out of everyone else. Gold. I had many many points of view at once. In one view I was in a sea of people with limbs interlocked, after I decided I wanted to be a part of the mountain I was on. It was like we were atoms. In my other view, I was in a crowd with every other human in existence, and everyone would contribute their "light" to add to a really beautiful song that was playing. It wasnt what would have actually been playing at the concert, or it was very very distorted but in a wonderful way. I remember I would be looking at all the lights, and I'd start to feel something. A mix between maybe jealousy and inferiority? I would start to feel less than pure happiness, and everyone would turn to me, and I would just laugh like, "aw shit, sorry guys, i forgot!', and then I would remember that I was just as much responsible for the beauty and light that I was seeing as everyone else.

For a while it was exciting and wild, etc etc, but then everyone's color turned to this color I've never seen before, the closest existing color I can relate it to is the blue/purple of a blacklight. Everything was calm, and it was silent while there was still music, and I was still but also on a wave, and I could feel each memory and opinion and like and dislike that I had, each individual thought that made me myself inside me as a "physical" speck, and I had thoughts I cant translate in any possible way.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 14:00:14 No.15506617
>>15506608
I remember there were people I could tell had been there longer, they stayed a part of the interlocking sea of atom people, they didnt care to come up and roam through the world and the crowd, because they were that world. and they were very welcoming like, "ah, first time here? acid, it was? enjoy! yes, yes this is really what it's like, it's that easy! just be happy!" In the distance I felt strong vibrations emanating from these triangular shapes made of interlocked mayan or aztec looking statue people. They felt very old and like they had been there the longest.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 14:03:27 No.15506619
>>15506617
All in all it was the most beautiful place I've ever "been", so my distress at possibly never being able to go back, is what causes my odd inbetween thoughts. On the trip after that I was in cold Lovecraftian space-hell for eternities on eternities because I spent my come-up trying to please my friends by denying myself of things that made me happy. And I wanted the light again without contributing my light, and I "missed" it.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 14:11:32 No.15506628
>>15506619
>>15506617
>>15506608
Shit, thats some pretty intense stuff.
Why are your friends against you being happy? are they worried about drugs? (understandable)
But yeah, sounds like you had a pretty intense psychedelic episode, thats got to change anyone.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 14:20:56 No.15506638
>>15506503
I actually am trying to develop some of these states of mind under pseudo control.
Any tips / pitfalls that you can elaborate on?

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 14:43:38 No.15506685
Its all in your head anon, your fine.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 14:50:36 No.15506701
>>15506628
They aren't against me being happy. At the time of the trip, they were just against roaming around the forest because they thought it was cold. Which majorly bummed me out since I brought us to the meadow we tripped in because it was one of my favorite spots. And then they wouldn't even let me leave the tent to go look at stars and be one with nature and all that good stuff.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 14:53:50 No.15506710
>>15506701
That led to the bad trip convincing me I that I was trapped in the tent. When I tried to unzip the tent it was like my skin/veins were being ripped off/out at the same pace.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 15:33:55 No.15506810
Major depressive checking in. I've had only a few paranormal experiences, and nothing that would be particularly interesting to other people at that. What I would describe as being psychological in nature, but not easily explainable as simply some kind of manifestation of my mental state/disease. In fact they've felt entirely unrelated to my depression, because they were overwhelmingly positive experiences. So I can't be sure.

Heavy drug use as a young teenager contributed to the mental problems I deal with today, or exacerbated an already existing imbalance in my still-growing brain. I've done a lot of psychedelics and had a few bad trips, but >>15506710 is pretty wild.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 16:14:14 No.15506913
General anxiety (not the disorder; I'm just an anxious person), hypochondriasis and panic disorder.

Does anyone know what I'm talking about when I say deja vu loop? It only ever happened recently when I smoked with a friend and for a few days after. I would start recognizing a series of events instead of just one image or conversation and after becoming aware of the loop I had a major attack that convinced me that the more I recognized the closer I was to dying. When I tried to fight it by talking it through or walking out of the room I only made it worse.

Does any of that sound at all familiar to anyone?

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 16:53:26 No.15507002
>>15506601
I appreciate the nope threads, and particularly enjoy hearing the occasional innawoods or security guard story. Also, boredom.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 17:18:29 No.15507042
Depression, OCD

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 17:30:18 No.15507074
In entomology, species differentiating from the statistical norm are called natural variations, not freaks, or deemed ill.

In human studies, though, variations are always described along with a value judgement. Although humans, just like insects, form along basically the same underlying biological path.

Where does politics end, and psychology begin?

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Orion 2014-11-24 17:32:41 No.15507080
>>15507074
>Where do politics end and psychology begin?

I'd argue that in this day and age, that they don't.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 17:36:50 No.15507090
Dissociative psychosis and cptsd reporting in

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 17:38:16 No.15507094
>>15507080
They don't......what? I am confused.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 17:38:41 No.15507095
>>15506503

Paranoid Personality Disorder.

Loads of fun.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 17:40:04 No.15507100
I've never experienced a negative emotion in my life. These things I have never experienced irritability, blame, rage, resentment, jealousy, nervousness, shock, excitement, worry, regret, remorse, obsessiveness, self-doubt, sadness, shame, disappointment, guilt, loneliness, or insecurity in this current life. I am 23 years old.

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Orion 2014-11-24 17:41:28 No.15507105
>>15507094
Politics never ends, and Psychology never begins.

Which is a bad analogy now that I read it. But What I mean is, they are so tied together the days, that you can't really tell a political push to keep people from acting a certain way (I.e, the whole ADD/ADHD explosion) from real psychological issues diagnosed by people who actually give a shit about the person being treated.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 17:44:08 No.15507109
>>15507100

Sounds like a curse if you ask me. Surely then you must have an ego the size of Manhattan.

Emotion is purely a perception on a 'y or z axis' of feeling, so you must be like a 2d being with no concept of what those emotions are. Not in an insulting manner, just something to think about.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 17:44:34 No.15507110
Only mental disorder is arachnophobia. Only other medical condition is an allergy to dust mites. Normalfag reporting in to send loads of friendship to all of you.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 17:46:21 No.15507115
What medications do you guys take, just out of curiosity? What would you recommend or tell people to avoid like the plague?

I'm prescribed Lamotrigine. Not the best thing in the world in my opinion. I've tried Risperidone, but there's too much irreversible shit for my tastes.

I'm >>15507095 by the way.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 17:48:04 No.15507120
>>15507109

I have positive emotions. I feel these emotions: patience, joy, empathy, courage, and calmness. I've never felt negative emotions and I've never not felt those positive emotions.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 17:50:08 No.15507124
I also have been diagnosed with major depression, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, dissociative disorder, and schizophrenia.

When things were really bad a few years ago, I feel as though my 'illnesses' helped me to meditate and discover more about myself.

Which of your symptoms is the worst to you, if you don't mind me asking?

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 18:04:48 No.15507152
My GP gave me citalopram and I've seen counselors and therapists, but I've never been formally assessed.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 18:07:51 No.15507158
>>15506503

I have (had?) depression and anxiety, but things are going better now.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 18:25:52 No.15507193
Asperger's and depression
I've had a fascination with aliens since I was a child.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 18:45:37 No.15507231
>>15507120
Tthat's interesting. Tell me more about you, if you want to.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 18:46:39 No.15507234
Anxiety so hard I get psychogenic pain
Other than that I might have mild autism or OCD

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 19:12:05 No.15507324
>>15507120

If this is legitimate, you should be studied scientifically.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 19:22:44 No.15507368
I have issues with depression, anxiety and adult ADHD. Currently medicated, but Winter tends to make things much more difficult. I'm going to look further into adaptogens such as rhodiola, lemon balm, and Siberian ginseng and start to experiment. I suggest that the rest of you look up information on these herbs. If nothing else, it's a less side effect riddled way to make our bodies more adaptive to stress. If anyone has any experience with these herbs or any others that they have success with, I would be happy to hear. That or any /x/ related methods.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 19:32:16 No.15507387
>>15507234
I think I might have that psychogenic pain too. I have other things wrong so it very well could be something else. I've been hearing voices for a while so either something otherworldly is fucking with me or something in my head is screwy. Honestly, with my history I find it harder to discount the latter

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 19:45:22 No.15507417
>>15507387
Is your psychogenic pain abdominal like mine?

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 19:59:04 No.15507451
>>15507417
I get it in my limbs mostly. Sometimes I'll get a pain in my abdomen but I've had pains there for a while so I think that is real

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 20:00:29 No.15507452
>>15507368
I highly recommend avoiding herbs as they often contain toxic heavy metals

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 20:07:38 No.15507477
>>15507115
Does risperidone diminish your vocabulary in a short space of time? Always looking for a second opinion on this.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 20:15:32 No.15507501
>>15507477
It can make you grow bitch tits.
>>15507452
I'm already taking rx amphetamine salts. Finding a reputable source would probably be best option for herbs.

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astrolumps 2014-11-24 20:28:28 No.15507534
I dunno what I am. I have massive anxiety all the time and especially around other people. I have experienced anxiety attacks. It's been suggested to me that might have bipolar depression or borderline personality disorder. Either way, something isn't right in my neurochemistry. I refuse to be professionally diagnosed. I don't believe any medications they would prescribe would work as well as smoking weed. Thats my relief. I feel receptive to the paranormal though, especially around animals.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 22:27:58 No.15507836
>>15506503
My Eeg says that my brain produces only or almost only theta waves instead of normal beta or alpha waves. Don't know what's the diagnosis is or how is it even possible, so don't ask, but yeah, I guess I'm not neurotypical.

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Anonymous 2014-11-24 23:13:09 No.15508010
>>15506586
I've felt this way, though maybe not on such a sever level, since I had a terrible trip on shrroms. Basically I thought I overdosed and died and was experiencing what the brain does to consciousness in that situation. Then the after death feeling was even more bizarre. I get little anxiety attacks from just randomly picturing that other reality now. Its bizarre, but I really want to pursue it more.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 03:29:09 No.15508919
Psychiatric medicine is a sham; they're like modern-day sorcerers. Using artificial drugs to treat made-up illnesses, instead of christlike empathy and compassion.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 03:30:44 No.15508925
Neurotypical, with slight OCD. I'm a clean freak and like things in their respective places. That's about it.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 03:33:06 No.15508935
>>15508919
Idk man, I find life a lot more enjoyable when I am on my meds

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 03:35:19 No.15508947
>>15508935
Of course you do. That's the point. Pain meds don't kill the pain, they make you not give a shit

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 03:46:01 No.15508991
>>15508919
Not made up illnesses, just commonly misdiagnosed illnesses. Depression, ADHD, and schizophrenia are all real. Whether someone has it or not is the difficult question.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 03:49:55 No.15509004
>>15508947

Uh, I'm pretty sure you've never taken serious painkillers for major pain. They definitely kill it (or at least the experience of it), not just make it possible to ignore.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 03:52:54 No.15509013
>>15506913

this is very familiar to me. I have undiagnosed major depression and used to have bad anxiety attacks. i was convinced i had a brain tumour and was afraid to do or say anything about it. But i began to get really big significant deja vu feelings, and sometimes i knew i had dreamt them before. so i also conviced myself that the more intense the feeling was, the closer i was to dying. it took me months to convince myself i was actually fine and now i don't get any anxiety attacks. i hope you're feeling better these days

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 03:59:36 No.15509041
>>15506503
I am going to keep this as simple as I can.

I took zolaf then my life changed as if I was in some kind of slightly better reality.

If I were to guess in percentage, every aspect is more better by 20-30%.

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The Splendid Vendor Xeno 2014-11-25 04:03:00 No.15509052
>>15508947
If you're saying Morphine doesn't make pain vanish to the conscious mind, it works that way perfectly for me.

If you believe that things like anti-depression or anti-anxiety medicines make you just not give a shit, that's right, because giving a shit in the wrong way/too much is exactly the problem.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 05:12:17 No.15509254
>>15506608
I understand you, I can't say I know exactly how you feel but trust me I understand. I took 3 tabs my first time and I just laid in bed staring up the popcorn ceiling as I saw lights felt a sensation similar to electricity run from below my feet to above my head. I could see intense colors and geometry blending in and out of my perspective almost as if I was in two places at once. But the most memorable part about my trip was the connection between my heart and my brain, I would feel as If my heart was overflowing with love and energy while my brain was tranquil enough to perceive and channel this energy above forming some kind of bond ( maybe something to do with polarity, yin/yang?). Also do you find anything intriguing about the number 47?

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 05:36:14 No.15509331
Thanks for reminding me to take my meds.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 05:38:44 No.15509340
Autism Spectrum here

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 05:46:58 No.15509364
Depression, and does alcoholism count?

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THE Oldfag 2014-11-25 05:53:04 No.15509374
>>15506503
I'm Clinical Depression, Schitzo Effective, Borderline.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 07:02:57 No.15509552
i see a therapist. But its mostly hey how you been, later. skitzo I guess. But with meds its pretty much nothing. Ive had some weird shit happen to me. Like REALLY weird. But im cool.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 07:06:50 No.15509562
>>15509552

I can barely remember yesterday. So I guess that helps.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 07:08:38 No.15509567
>>15509374
>Schitzo Effective
Schizoaffective.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 07:44:46 No.15509680
Assburgers, Schizoid PD, Dysmythia(fancy word for chronic depression), and social anxiety.

No, I do not have fedora, a neckbeard, a katana, or watch MLP.

Being with people and communicating with them is a special kind of hell. "Oh socializing will make you feel so much better!" Yeah, no. The more isolated I am, the freer I feel, and the happier I am.

I don't seem to have much problem with communicating via typing, though. Everything else is absolute spaghetti loss, almost every sentence I speak is something completely different from what I actually mean.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 07:52:15 No.15509694
>>15509680
any chance you could give some details on how the schizoid effects you.

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Anonymous 2014-11-25 07:56:53 No.15509709
>>15509680
I feel the same way. It feels damn near impossible to keep my thoughts together to form sentences orally. Is that the anxiety aspect?







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